We exchanged texts all night with me profusely apologizing over and over again. All with the same conclusion. We are finished! She accepted my apology, her son accepted my apology but she feels she can not trust her kids with me any more. I will do anything with this woman to make it right again. We have so much history and I would hate to have it go by the wayside because of my stupid mistake. I really love this woman and love the kids. I asked for another chance in my last text to prove myself but she said she couldn't afford anything like this to happen again. I told her I would promise I would never do anything like this again but received no reply. I guess that says allot there.
It seems life gives you road bumps. This is one of them that I will have to bear. Like I said when I started this blog facing the consequences of my actions and dealing with them is part of what this blog is all about. This is one action and consequence that will bug me for a long time. I never felt so bad about any action I have taken before. And never will.
I don't feel any better about what I did now this morning, but it felt good to get it all out and down in black and white here.
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